Sorry for the plain looking blog. I'm still learning how to use neocities! And I'm not very good at it... ;_; But if you wanna hear more about the stuff I think, then this silly link is where you can find my tumblr ^-^
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April 5th, 2026: I just want to give up. I'm the only one taking care of the house. Lately it feels like there's just more trash, more gnats everyday. No one does the dishes except for me. No one sweeps the floors except for me. People leave their food and drinks on the counters and desks like animals, never throwing them away. They leave thick sticky substances behind to harden before bringing them downstairs. Half eaten plates of food left around the house for me to clean up like I'm their housemaid.
The house feels more crowded and filthy. I don't think I even have the motivation to clean my own room anymore- My only safe space. I'm using my closet to pack away things I don't use, but maybe I should turn it into the only real hideaway. Feels like I don't even have time for my hobbies anymore, just being sad. I used to enjoy making dolls and ribbons to put in my hair. Now all I fantasize about is finding a way to get out of here.
I'm so tired and lonely. I need to clean my tank and feed my spiders. But I just want to give up on everything. Everyone wants me to do something for them but what are they doing for me? Why is nobody helping me? I need to leave. I need to run away and leave. I don't think anyone is coming to save me. I hate everyone here. It's cruel to say, but in many ways my life would be easier if they all died. I feel morbid and rotten. Maybe I'm the one that needs to die.
Whenever I get the courage to learn more html and css, I'll check out some of these tutorials (p.s. I think the worst way to die is by drowning!)